i have come to greater level apperciation for the complexity of the filmmaking process. now that i have begun to work on a film of my own, i can see how difficult it is to get everything coordinated.

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take for example a typical narrative, most shots are of close-ups or mid-long shots, and they usually have the interaction between two people, not including the cameraman, so that makes a minimal of three people. i have one person. when i shoot myself walking, i cannot have the camera follow me, the image can be stagnate. when we are so attuned to the present day moving following people, it is different to watch still space, still life, and look at a photograph, that is what is not expected in film.

and also the handheld options is not one that warrant, because it is too shaky, it gives me a headache watching such footage, so i won't want to put the same difficulties for my viewers.

i've come to appreciate herzog's fata morgana much more, and many other documentary film makers, now that i realized how much creativity had to be put into creating a solid progression of images and sounds.

at first i wanted to film myself walking through empty space. i like walking. and it has turned out quite differently because the images don't seem to match or have much energy or substance. i think of the scene from "where is my friend's house", where the little boy run up a hill and it crosses zig zag, so it takes him a while to reach the top, yet he is running fast. or i think of the scene where a person will be walking in the distant and as time passes he comes closer and passes by the camera. i like how space can be traveled over time and how it can be displayed through cinema.

however i find it difficult to film such a scene in berlin because we don't have many hills or vast expanses of land, and any of such places are usually filled with people, or illegal to trespass. i also have difficult framing the picture, and have to do many re-take and at many time do not know how the image will turn out, so i have to keep on coming and re-shoting it.