today i woke up at 6am to go shooting at the glass factory, it was strange being in a abandoned factory all alone, and walking in the pitch black. inside the glass factory, i forget that i am in berlin. it does not help to make me feel safe, that we are but a few blocks away from neo-nazi town. the last time my friend was at the glass factory, he spotted the neo-nazi and gangster, hanging out there. it is strange how this glass factory can be home to so many different people.

i must admit, i was scared.

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i quickly climbed up to the roof on the sixth floor, and tried to shoot the sunrise. the roof was icy and frozen over, so it very slippery, i had to crawl around, and still i had a tendency to slip. i felt a bit unsafe. i spent about an hour on the roof and it was surreal, all alone on top of an abandoned glass factory, as if this is a place i can call my own for this one moment, just this one moment. this must be how the graffit artist, nazis, and gangster feel, a sense of home berlin, where nothing is really owned, always shifting.

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the hour i spent filming the sunrise, most of what had been a waste. the footage was overexposed. having nevered worked with a video camera before i didn't know how to use its functions properly. i turned the shutter speed to the fastest one possible hoping that it capture the sunrise, because that is what i would do for a picture camera. however this still caused overexposure. i talked to some people and they said to fool around with the AE, which functions as the aperture, and to this i was clueless.

this is not the first time i have run into issues filming.

the day before i film in a heavily vegetated area, and it was dark, still 2pm, but dark. because the camera had to focus on so much and there was less light, it seem to blur everything together. the footage is trash. all together i have a few hours of footage but much of it can't use because of my ignorance of how to use the camera.

i can't wait for the editing process.