our time in berlin is almost over

when i first went to the memorial for the murder jews of europe i saw a tiny bird. and i followed the small bird, i followed it for about 10-15 minutes. then i realize that i would've liked to film it, so i pulled out my camera and while i was doing so, the bird flew away. i spend the next hour walking around the memorial, not with the mission of looking for the bird, i wanted to walk around more. it was cold. when i finally found the bird, i pulled out my camera and it flew away very fast. it did not fly away into the sky when i was walking with it, only when i pulled out my camera.

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i have a camera but for the first five weeks i refused to take pictures with it. i did not want to pose, take pictures of a past experience, i felt that i would rather experience the time at hand. i rather liked the experience of following the bird and walking with it, when i had the camera i felt rushed and quite unnatural. i like walking slowly.

if my film will be about memory and experience, how will i ever have any footage if i don't film my experiences?

our time in berlin is almost finish.